Sunday, June 29, 2008

11:25 PM

todae went to aunt's house to celebrate my 14's birthday.
but if u realise, my birthday is like 1 week later lor.
but hu cares. just celebrate lor. got the pictures my aunt made.
it looks better with the candle. it's a mango cake. very nice. (=

cake without candle. quite odd.

yay!! the nicer looking cake with the bright bright candle. =P

Labels: happy. (=

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

4:41 PM

school just started again.
dunnoe why every time very tired.
wan to be awake but cannot tahan. very sleepy.
but nvr sleep lah. if sleep surely tio scolded by teacher.

nothing much. post only.

dunnoe why nobody come tag. pls tag leh

Monday, June 23, 2008

6:35 PM

lets not say the word, stupid. very barbaric.
lets say nothing. better
this girl told the teacher tt we did not participate because we did not do the work during the holidays. then the teacher targeted at my group. then say wad, if we didnt do, we wont get any marks. but the problem is tt she "solo" most of the work herself then say tt my group didnt do coz most of the other ppl were unable to come on tt day. and i had an appointment
then wanted everyone to do together coz this is a PROJECT WORK meaning everyone should do together. not solo.

1st of all. the teacher ASSIGNED me to be the ldr obviously i didnt wan to. then she thinks tt she the ldr here. "order" others around. then in front of teachers very "guai" then when no teacher then ignore others.

so wad if she is very good in her/his acadamic.doesnt mean tt she can "order" others around.

but who cares. let it go. i will try to relax. although she order me around, wad can i do? already over liao.

maybe im the only who will giv her "chance". if others, she could hav be threaten by others or sth else.

let everything go. todae is todae, tomorrow is tomorrow. wadeva, once done cant be undone.

Labels: relaxed as usual

Friday, June 20, 2008

9:05 AM

todae morning at abt 6am, i was waken up by the #^&$^&*ing heavy rain.
coz the rain somehow got into my room and caused my whole bed, myself and the floor to be wet
then unable to sleep anymore. now very tired. wan to sleep but cant sleep

stupid rain caused me so many trouble. now i nid to mob the floor, change all my bedsheet, and hav a bath (tt is the only thing tt is good).

Labels: STUPID RAIN

Thursday, June 19, 2008

7:55 AM

yesterday went for this piano recital.
played a song. OMFG, i made a lot of mistake sia.
maybe nervous or something. dunnoe

shyna was aso there. she grade 5 so is the next half of the recital.
(meaning tt she hav to wait for 1 hour for nothing. )
then everyone was supposed to sit on the floor.
the teachers(female) there are so childish lah.
sabo my teacher. tsk tsk tsk. wad age liao. still sabo other ppl
then my teacher played 3 pieces. 1 from chopin, then another from debusi(paisei, i dun noe how to spell.) then he was like teaching us. very funny.

this is where i was supposed to play.

while playing, there will be a teacher taking ur funny espression. very ps

stupid and extra "dollies" hanging like dead ppl.

emo shyna. haha. i will probably die on saturday if she see this.

emo shyna again. dun noe who is tt behind her. a grade 8 sia.

Labels: tired for nothing.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

10:17 PM

she replied my msg abt whether she liked me.
and im TOTALLY COOL.
no hard feelings.
well, nothing to sad abt.
she just dun like me. but still friends. i guess???
but become friends better.
coz if got boy-girl relationship(girl&boy friend)
dun noe how to 面对 others.
wan to do neo-prints again with them.
long time nvr do liao.
wonder if she got come my blog.
希望她有来我的 blog
no hard feelings though. just wished tt she's happy. (=
happy blog again. happy for me, happy for her, happy for everyone.

Labels: overcome being emotionally sick (aka love sick). (=

Saturday, June 14, 2008

10:57 PM

todae went to khco for practice as usual.
i wait for her to come but as i predicted, she did not came


after khco, waited for cuizhen for a long time as she got theory lesson with juliet
then went to lot 1 to eat. ate at sakae sushi there.
ate with salim, zheyuan, jingying, lishan and donna
have some pictures there while eating.
then found out y she nvr actually came.
it is becoz she hav programmes on saturday.
y am i so UNLUCKY?!?!?!?!?!


all the food we ate. a lot sia

mr ong, aka salim; xiao qiang; lau wang

the moving plates with un-fresh sushi.

donna and lishan laughing? but at wad?

zheyuan(zeyuan) and his gf, jing ying. (=
so lucky. i really jealous.

Labels: emotionally sick (aka love sick)

Friday, June 13, 2008

9:10 PM

tomorrow would be saturday so hav a 50% chances of meeting her.
im sure 95% tt she will not come or she wont talk to me.
but i will take the initiative to try talk to her.
hope tt she wont avoid me. =(

wish myself gd luck tomorrow.
i will try my very BEST!!!!!!!

Labels: emotionally sick (aka love sick)

Thursday, June 12, 2008

9:29 AM

my brother is coming home todae from his camp
for the past 2 days i very shiok coz no one to ks me. (=

but still thinking of her everyday, every night
wanna meet her.

i will be going to "holiday" from friday
see if u get it. (=

Labels: emotionally sick (aka love sick)

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

2:15 PM

i guess tt i am love sick.
want to see her immediately. (dunno y?)

wonder if she had received the msg i sent her.
how will she react?
will she ignore me forever?
nid some pros' advice.

confess liao. then wait for her to react.
dunno if she will reply or actually see tt msg.

wish tt i can see her every sat would be extremely good.
sometimes think of her until "走火入魔".
coz kept on daydreaming when studying, watching tv

if wadeva i wished for would come true, i would be very very .... very happy
tt is if every wish would come true.

Labels: emotionally sick (aka love sick)

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

4:47 PM

wonder wad she is doing now.
wish tt she is still very cheerful and optimistic
tt is after i hav viewed her blog.

i admit tt i am quite emo most of the time.
maybe because of her. or maybe tired or something

after the day i seeing her
i wanted to take some picture with her but she went away.
i wanted to giv her something as well but she went away.

maybe i am not destined for her.
i just like her. is it wrong to like a person?
or maybe the god is trying to make my life an emo one.

i missed her being hyper.
but she 一再二,再而三 ignore me.
maybe she was in a hurry or something
but i wished tt i can see her again.
most probably at all cost.

i wish her all her best in her studies and everything
i believed tt she will look good in both short hair and long hair.
but she belived tt she looks funny when she cut her hair.

wished tt i was destined for her though.
missing her delicate voice, laughter, smile and talking to her.
always wanting to protect her.
if i was older then her, it would be perfect.

Monday, June 9, 2008

4:20 PM

abt 2 to 3 weeks nvr see her liao.
but able to see her liao. she dun bother to look back
now starting to missed her again.
only able to look at her but in her blog.
wish tt she would talk me again. 面对面.

i feel tt i being left out.
heartbroken. saded
can someone help me??
i nid someone to talk to.
probably her friend?

i noe tt she is lovely and cute
no wonder i like her. (=
but now, can she pls talk to me
wad hav i done to make her unhappy?
can she forgive me if i did something wrong.
i am really sorry.
if i can go back to the past,
i will do wadever it takes to change the present(now).
now i hardly talked to her.
i feel sad and quiet. as if my heart hav broken into 1million pieces

miss her laughter, her voice and her smiles.

2:22 PM

y is it tt everybody still thinks tt i like yi wei when i already say I DUN LIKE HER!!!

is it tt difficult to noe tt i dun like her anymore!!!
pls try to understand. thks
and stop ksing me. very annoying.

nothing much todae. when for nypsco meeting.
then sian there then go eat at coro eat.
dunno y we were sitting at the stairs so long???

Sunday, June 8, 2008

11:24 PM

y, y, y??? y must this happen on me?
i only wan to be her friend. )=
then she dun even wan to say a hi to me.
just a hi will do. but, she ignored me.
wad can i do to make her back to how she was before.
i dun really mind if she dun like me . I REALLY DONT MIND!!!!
but she still can be my friend.
maybe i am not her cup of coffee or tea.
i dun noe wad she is thinking now
but i am sure tt maybe siyun was right.
she suspect i like her but she dun hav to avoid me.
she can just tell me. it's fine.
i only wan her to be my friend and tt is already enough.
just friend only. is it tt hard?
just talk to me. but y is she ignoring me?
i was only saying hi to her and then she walked away.
at least reply back. i dun really ask for much.
just a reply back like hi or something simple will do.
wish tt she will read this post.
I MISS TALKING TO HER!!!!

9:10 PM

able to update liao. (=

firstly, on saturday. yesterday went to khco as usual. except tt got a mini-performance.
we only played one song then the others are played by others. then supposed to bring everything up back to the room liao then everybody dun wan help then only marcus, fang qi and me keep everything. very tired. got some photos too. (=

wonder where kelwin is looking at? looks emo

so many chim words on the floor. (ignore the small blue bucket)

wa sorry lah. dun angry leh. can dun diao ppl. jkjk

models of towers and ... for the game exhibition?
secondly, on sunday. todae morning i went to sonata for piano by foot. walking half way, saw vicky and si yu talking. as i did not wan to be notice, i covered my face while walking. like i avoiding them. then after piano, i went home. then ltr went to NAFA to watch the Guzheng Ensemble. i noe some ppl there performing like winnie, siyun and bendini. (=

Friday, June 6, 2008

9:19 PM

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

12:41 PM

y people like evan and more like girls tt are cute on the outside???
and y girls like(currently dun noe any) like boys tt are handsome on the outside or cute????
we should look at people's internal personality coz u dun noe wad does the person tt u like would do or something else??? should noe more abt the person 1st. for me i wan to ask aso cannot coz 没有机会见到她. at least ur got to meet ur lover sia. i wan to meet aso cannot.

but i will put my results for the 1st priority and others later coz now study is more important. then think abt others later. XD

12:30 PM

now i left abt 2 weeks liao then start school
so cannot play too much or else ciam

this saturday got performance so nid to practice
this sunday got piano so aso nid to practice

ah ya, now no much time to play liao lah
hai~ sian

Monday, June 2, 2008

4:04 PM

todae went to nyps for the 2nd meeting of this year's co
when i reached there at abt 9.30a.m. , only lim rei, kai kiat and me were there.
after a long time, i saw kit yan, yoon yee, aspen and andika were at the main gate dunno waiting for who. then after a few minutes, elena, huang yuan, xin yuan, zhi kan came.
not for long, the security guard told zhi kan to go to general office to do something.
then the security guard saw lim rei and told her to come down. obviously, she was trying to sabo me and kai kiat lor. nvm. then when we came down, wait a while then go back up to meeting.
then abt 10.47a.m. , ashlynna came. then talk talk talk.
after talking, zhi kan told us(as in the whole group) to do wad we are supposed to do coz we did not do wad we were supposed to do.

and then blah blah and ...


then tt $#@% xin yuan come ks me by saying this, " oh, jiaxuan, do u noe tt SHE(yiwei) is not coming for the whole camp. "

then she still thinks tt im still fond of yiwei then ....

3:03 PM

Sunday, June 1, 2008

10:02 AM

nothing much but i wasted a lot of time to hav music on my blog.
ur got to listen to the doraemon song very nice.
hope ur enjoy.